May. 29th, 2013


May. 29th, 2013 10:33 pm
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Almost six years ago, my sister draped herself in black and hid in her home during her birthday. She told everyone she was in mourning because she had turned 30 that day. My sister's attachment to the idea of her age was ridiculous to me, though now I try to view such reactions with sympathy. But what is age besides a social construct? Time in itself is a construct used to determine mutual arrangements according to a universal understanding of time. So what is age? It is also a construct of time, used to calculate human life cycles and document data. So what if she turned 30? I turned 26 yesterday. It seems that as you grow older time seems to go faster, but really it's that our lives get crazier. We are so distracted by our loved ones, our hobbies, and our work that we don't take the time to slow down. This morning I locked my keys in my car. I was in such a rush to get into work because both of my co-workers were going to be late and I had to be on time. Thank God for my boyfriend who came to rescue me! He was able to get my keys out of my car. Thank God then, despite our many disputes about it, he makes his own work schedule. Does he make a lot of money? No, but you know what, him not making a lot of money is okay when I know I can rely on him for other means of survival, like getting my keys out of my car. What I mean is simply this: we need to remember to take the time to slow down during the day, and appreciate the things we have, not worry ourselves about the things we don't have. I am so grateful to have such supportive parents. I am so grateful to have such a loving boyfriend. I am so grateful to have my health, God, friends, my vision, my hearing, my abilities, my voice, my youth, my car, my books, my blankets, my jobs, etc. It is so important to remember to take the time to understand nature. Listening to a storm now, I hear the thunder and I see the lightening, and I recognize that both are out of my control, and that's okay. I notice the flame from the tea light I lit earlier dancing in the breeze from the crack in the window, and I appreciate the slight coolness from the oscillating fan I turned on before I sat down. It is so important to appreciate these things, and to take a moment to recognize that we do not have power and control over everything. I locked my keys in my car. I was without a vehicle. It's like being without a cell phone nowadays, people feel completely lost and out of touch; but perhaps being without a cell phone is one of the better things we can do. The upcoming generation is bombarded with advertisements and flashy, quick animations that create brains that react well to overstimulates but then cannot function without them. Their lives will be shorter in comparison, even if they live to be 100. The point is, it doesn't matter how old you are. If you are happy and healthy and enjoying life, your life will be the longest and the most fulfilling.


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